Magical Cat's Corner

February - A Month of Pain and Joy

I've been busy... taking care of a newborn while recovering from surgery is tiring!

Tess made her grand entrance into the world on February 1, 2005. I was induced because my doctor thought she might be getting too big to deliver naturally. We arrived at the hospital at 6:30 AM. I was hooked up to Pitocin by 7:30. For the first few hours, I tolerated the contractions fine, but when they became 1 minute apart and extremely painful (Pitocin is known for that), I knew I would not have energy to push when the time came, and I asked for an epidural. The epidural took away the pain, but my blood pressure got very low, so they had to give me epinephrine and lower my pain medicine dose. By 4:00 PM, I was fully dilated, and the epidural had worn off. My doctor told me it was time to push.

I pushed for two hours, and it was the most painful experience of my life. The baby's head was very high up, and it was sideways, so the doctor tried to turn her head while I pushed. Excrutiating! They had me try the squatting position, but the baby's head refused to come down. They told me I was a good pusher, but I felt like a bit of a failure for not being able to push the baby out. She was just too big. At 6:00 PM, my doctor recommended a c-section. Tess was out at 6:35. By then I was so relieved that she was out that I didn't care about the c-section.

I was quite alert for the whole thing (and shivering from the epidural), and the nurses couldn't believe I could move my legs right after the surgery. It seemed like hours before James and I could finally hold our daughter. It seemed even longer before I could have something to drink. I've never been so thirsty in my whole life! I had a Gatorade at 6:30 AM, and I didn't have another drink until around 8:30 PM. I chugged everything James put in my hands. They told me to take it easy, but I never felt nauseated. Of course, it was all worth it to have Tess. We were overjoyed that she was finally out! What an adorable baby...

I recovered very quickly, but it was painful. In fact, almost 3 weeks later, I'm still in pain. Breastfeeding is painful until I get used to it. I've had a bout with the flu. It could be a secondary infection from the c-section, but it seemed like the flu to me. My whole body ached, and I had a fever of 102 for two days. It was extremely difficult to care for Tess when I could barely get myself off of the couch. My doctor put me on antibiotics just in case.

In between the pain, I also have incredibly happy times when the baby smiles or just sleeps peacefully. She is so cute! James and I couldn't be happier with her. She is not on a schedule, and we are tired, but we love her and we love being parents.

Tess Elizabeth
Born February 1, 2005 at 6:35 PM
Weight: 8 lbs 12 oz
Length: 21 inches